Virtue: Confidence

I am going to have to work on my confidence. The truth is that I have little to none self-confidence. I am really working hard on it though! It was right after 6th grade when my confidence started to dwindle and disappear before my eyes. I was tested in Junior High. I had to see if I can stand it. But I don't think I passed. I came out of Junior High with a curved spine (due to all the hunching over), damaged hair, tired eyes, and braces.

And then, I am being tested again during my high school years. I was a Sophomore at a high school I wasn't supposed to go to. Therefore, I didn't know many friends at the high school. I did have a couple of friends, but they became popular and then left me. I just didn't feel like I belonged anywhere.

Now here I am, a Junior. I am much better off now then I was when I started junior high, but I still don't have much confidence. I continue to feel as if I still haven't found my place in high school. I don't go up to guys and flirt with them anymore. I don't speak up in my classes. And guess what? School is actually the place where I seem to be the most confident. When I am out of school, I just feel so lonely. I live in my own little world when I am not in school. It's just me and my daydreams of being popular and famous.

That is why I've decided to work on my confidence. "Be more confident" has been on my New Year's Resolution for the past "too many" years. I keep on saying to myself that I will be confident when I get my braces out, but when is that?! It's been two years now. I should have gotten my braces off half a year ago! And I am left with braces for.. I don't know how much longer! But, it just seems forever. And so it doesn't feel right to put a time when I will start becoming confident. The moment I become confident is NOW! NOW! NOW! NOW! That is right, NOW! No more waiting for my braces to come off to start being confident. I will be confident right now. And will forever be confident!

What a better time to be confident than right now? A new school semester is coming up and it's about time that I start becoming confident. FBLA competitions will be really soon, so it's about time that I start becoming confident. It's about time that I start becoming confident! I am so tired of always bringing myself down. Feeling as if I am not worthy or accepted. I am tired of people believing that they are above me. I am tired of it all. I am confident now. And will always be forever confident.

My Virtue Pledge:

I always smile.
I always laugh.
I always make eye contact.
I always flirt.
Shoulder back, head high, chest forward, and rhythmic walk, I always walk the "strong catwalk."
I never doubt myself, my actions, my thoughts, or my decisions.
I stand up for others.
I speak up and share my thoughts clearly and effectively.
I do not remain angry at minor trifles.
I do not let anyone bring me down.
I know what I want.
I know that I can attain what I want.
I am focused and concentrated on my goal.
I never give up.
I am committed to whatever I put my mind to.
I have strong connections with others.
I have a huge social network.
I enjoy every step of this process to becoming confident.
I continue to learn, flourish, and become stronger.
People will acknowledge, admire, and look up to me.