List of things to do.

Solve a Rubik's cube
Visit West and East High School
Learn how to spin a pencil.

Let it be.

Since one of my passions is fashion (clothes and shopping), I decided to learn how to sew. I already know how to shop with a high school budget and I am sure that I can put an amazing outfit together all the time, every time, since I am able to do all that in 5 minutes in the mornings. But one thing that is quite essential to the fashion industry is to actually make the clothes and maybe design. So, that was essentially what I did over the weekend. I spent all of Saturday last week learning how to sew. It was quite frustrating at first, since I didn't know how to sew and my parents just kept on coming in my room and staring at me. I think what really angered me was when my dad said, "So, don't get into sewing that much. It's just for fun, right? You can't really make it into a career." Well, he said that in Vietnamese. And I only get pieces of what he says, since there is quite a language barrier between my parents and I. But that was what he said. And that really just made me mad. I just told him, "I know that it's just for fun. But what if I get good at it?" He just said to make sure it's only "just for fun because it's just a big waste of time and it's hard work." I was mad because my dad was telling me what I can't do with my life. I was pissed off. I mean, seriously? I was mad and I am pretty sure he noticed. And he better know that. Parents shouldn't tell their kids what they should and shouldn't do with their lives. I am sixteen years old, I should be making my own decisions. If I want to do something, let it happen! Geez. Parents really don't understand, do they? They are just going to hold back progress, but then it's going to be too late when they finally notice what they have done. My parents pressured my older sister to be a Pharmacist and she caved in. She majored in Pharmacy and she was miserable and ended up having to go to school for another two years. And my parents blame my sister for not deciding her major beforehand. My parents are that ignorant. And guess what they are doing to me? They are also pressuring me to become a pharmacist, doctor, or lawyer. Typical of Asian parents. No wonder Asian teenagers have the highest suicidal rates. Japanese students are just throwing themselves out of windows because of so much pressure from their parents. But of course I know better and I always say "no" to them. I think that is the most common thing I say to them. NO, NO, NO. I say no when they order me to throw out the trash. For goodness sakes, just ask if I can throw the garbage, don't just say THROW THE GARBAGE! And my parents have better just let me be. LET ME BE whatever I want. Even though I have no idea what I want to be or what I want to major in or what career to pursue in. Just LET ME BE. LET ME BE. LET ME BE. One of my favorite Beatles' songs: LET IT BE!

Passions.

My passions include:
Fashion-Clothes and shopping
Celebrities (especially hot famous men)
Writing (it all depends on what kind of writing)-I enjoy writing in my journal and blog
Self-Development-the secret, personal development, meditation, enlightenment
Volunteering
Philosophy and Humanities
Peru
Mysteries of the World
Dressing up (for a good reason, like for a play or for Halloween)
Drifting, racing, and Camaros
Skateboarding
Bad boys

The Top Three:
Fashion-Shopping and clothes
Personal-Development-I think maybe volunteering might fall into this.
Philosophy and Humanities

As you can see, there is a part of me that is very different. The girly side that is just caring and wants to grow as a person and on the other hand, I am someone that is totally obsessed with fame, the thrills that come with skateboarding, cars, and bad boys.

I want to incorporate all of my passions, so that every part of me is satisfied.

Ms. Popular

The teacher announces that there is a seating chart. I pretend to be somewhat angry but deep inside, I am really excited. As I walk over to that seating chart paper, I said in my head. "Gotta sit next to "this hot guy", I've got to sit next to this hot guy." (I actually said the hot guy's name, I didn't say "this hot guy.") And you know what? I find my name and who is sitting next to me? THE HOTTEST GUY EVER! I manifested what I wanted! My heart was pounding, I just couldn't believe it, and I had to give that seating chart a second glance. And there it was. My name next to the hot senior boy's name. I got even more excited for my Psychology class! But guess what? He goes and asks the teacher to let him move somewhere else, and guess what else? I actually helped him move by persuading the teacher! I can't believe I actually did that! He was probably happy he moved away from me because he probably thought I was sort of creepy since I've been staring at him every class period. But hey... I didn't want to sit next to some angry, HOT senior. So I just let him move. And I would have been really distracted in that class if he sat next to me. So there you have it. That is one of my crushes.
The next boy is also another boy that I think is the HOTTEST BOY ever! He's got amazing style! Actually that psychology boy and this boy both have great style. I love boys who really think about what they wear. The biggest things that turn me on is when boys have a great fashion sense and if they've got a really attractive voice, that just revs me up. Yeah, this boy, I really can't take my eyes off of him. He's just sooooo good looking. I was about to ask him to the dance. But, I ended up asking a really, really great friend.
Well, that's it so far. Those are my two current crushes. I don't know why this would even be relevant or important to you. But this blog is about my perspective. And a 16 year-old is usually always thinking about boys and sex. Things haven't changed. Except, instead of hitting boys, telling them they have cooties, or teasing them like I did in Elementary, I am actually talking to them, getting to know them, applying real flirting techniques, and really actually looking for a long-term relationship. I am all grown up now.